When people share experiences, they are seeking to inspire the change.
"Whenever I thought of work it seemed that working might not be something that is all about me. I always felt like it had to be something else, to provide for more than one person besides me. Of course that didn't include jobs like being a seller, for example in a fast food, it was not only relationship with any audience. It had to be something that actually contribute to people. In my graduation, that is the philosophy, the most possible way of doing this is lecturing. Whenever I think of work, I think the best would be a situation that could generate income and that could still allow me to help someone.
If I would try to describe my career as a teacher in a movie, it would be a drama and would happen in any country in Africa. A short film could handle it, but we can always explore a feature film with that experience. I think the script tells the story of a person who never saw himself as a teacher and that was 'dropped from parachutes' by some ideals, thought about how to contribute socially, but after living this experience realized that this wouldn't be so simple. Has a short path in teaching, then freak out with work and goes away for a few years and later on a near future, returns with something more interesting to contribute.
During the graduation everything is wonderful, you think you can do anything. When you arrive in a real educational experience, then the experience is another deal. It is not entertainment, it's education.
And it's so hard, you know? Very often these spaces are seen as just entertainment spaces. If you have an idea that can change the perception of those children or teenagers, they find it boring because you are housed in a space that does not have this intention. Then you try to bring the fun and the questioning to this kind of education, this is not good. You create new projects and they don't work. Asks for help to the institution and it doesn't help you. There are many obstacles. The educational experience is the space in where your ideal is questioned the whole time. You bump into structural and human difficulties. What makes you wake up every day is not money, but it's still that ideal that you believed, that this work is even better, more useful and more necessary to work in other areas. There are many human gains involved.
Sometimes I felt that others educators prayed so that no one showed up with a new idea, because it gives a lot of work. People are tired and worn out and end up not wanting to take steps beyond those they are already used to. Because much has been tried, it is important to think about it too. There is many problems in the area: the educators, the coordination, the state, etc. The loneliness of the educator is a reality. Sometimes you want to create something different, so you have to make it hidden, because you know that you can be cut ot. So you do it alone and if it works, you share. I feel that because of the lack of support, people begin to want less and less work. In some places, you have an incentive, material support, etc. But in most places, none of this is guaranteed.
There is also a lack of maturity to understand that there are many different ways of making progress with the education. People who act differently are being put to the test, marginalized and, when you least expect it, that teacher was cut from the project.
I believe that the image that society produces teachers has much to say of this difficulty that the information and achievements of educational practice transiting in people's speech. I think there are various opinions on what it means to be a teacher, I hope there are. I know there are people who look and think 'Oh, poor thing'. Some people feel ashamed for me "such a good education, being wasted." But there are other opinions. People who work with education see much value in it. I love to see good experiences with education, like knowing how people are teaching. But I think, in fact, it is a community of people that can admired themselves.
The great mass of the people don't see teaching with good eyes. This is due to the image of teachers in Brazil: low-wage earners, facing precarious working arrangements, facing an ideological system contrary to their performance, become people professionally unattractive. The teacher's status is a solitary status. The dialogue between teachers is revolutionary in this sense: when people share experiences, they are seeking to inspire the change.
It's important to say that we learn a lot lecturing. You are facing a lot of different point of views from yours. I learned ways to access these people who are different. There are people who need a kind of voice, others need different ways, others need you to draw. You try to adapt to each student. It is difficult because we have some limits. For example, this thing of making the class silent. It's complicated. You need a minimum level of order to begin with, then you find yourself being a dictator and saying things like 'it's time for everyone to be quiet', it seems easier than trying to access each one individually. I got lost with this.
Some things I understand better after I stopped teaching. Experiences are taking shape later. I learned a lot about myself, about my limits as a person. I become a less open-minded, more practical, but in a bad sense of being practical. I found myself ignoring some ideas so I could achieve some goals, leading things in a pragmatic way. There was this transformation in me.
What I wish for the children with whom I shared this experience is that they have an extended perception. That they can experience and try things they didn't yet have the opportunity. I think that education needs it, otherwise you end up creating curriculums increasingly lean, that influence children to achieve goals which can not be theirs. I think the way is another, is to show all the possibilities so that choices can be made based on more experience. I hope the future includes making choices, that the child know he has an option, or at least understand that it may have options and go for it."